Those of you who know me know I'm a die-hard plotter. Character charts. Full, scene-by-scene outlines. Research in advance. The works.
Yeah, well, I have a secret confession. I can't work that way anymore, and facing that fact somehow manages to scare me to death and excite me beyond belief all at once.
Photo by: the trialI'm not sure what's changed. Maybe I have. The last year has been insane, forcing me to go through some major, life-changing, ups-and-downs. After not writing for a while, I came back to my work enthusiastic and energetic... only to stall in the beginning stages of drafting an outline. I panicked, outlined again... and stalled. So I cried (seriously), outlined again... and stalled.
And then, one day, I said "Fuck it." (Really. I did.) I remembered reading a book that praised writing prompts and their effect on creativity. At that point, I had nothing to lose so I figured why not give this a shot? After all, nothing else I'd tried seemed to work.
I chose a headline from my daily newspaper at random, skipped reading the article altogether, and started writing. Before I knew it, I had a character who intrigued me, in a situation that damn nearly broke my heart. "Aha!" I thought. "Now I can outline." And I did. Only to start writing the story itself, and find my outline was as far removed from the words pouring on screen as Harry Potter is from Anna Karenina.
The really scary part? The stuff coming out on screen was much, much better than the crap in my outline. And I thought it was a pretty good outline to begin with. Guess that'll teach me. Now, every day I sit in front of my computer, I approach the story with a giddy enthusiasm that makes butterflies stir in my stomach. Butterflies? Damn. I haven't felt butterflies in years.
Now, for the first time ever, I'm discovering the story along with my characters. Some days, scenes brew in my mind. Other days, they appear as though out of thin air while my fingers hit the keyboard. When I find myself overwhelmed by questions I figure I should know the answers to, I stop, grab a notebook, and start free-writing. On the characters. On the story. On possible explanations for things that happened in the past, or things that may happen in the future.
I have no idea when the story will end. Or how. Oh, I have a vague hope it might end up where I think it will, but oddly enough, I find myself not caring much if it doesn't. I trust my process. My pantser process.
Not long ago, the word "pantser" would have made me break out in hives. Now, I'm tentatively embracing it, and my newfound creativity (and productivity) along with it.
Are you embracing your process? Or do you fight it, hoping it'll magically morph into something resembling The Hero's Journey instead of The Insomniac Writer's Plight?
Lacey
http://www.laceysavage.comLabels: pantser, plotter, process, writing
7 Comments:
I'm Red Velvet Cake.. And I'm not ashamed to admit - I have no idea what it is...
Do you remember when Baskin Robbins had a pizza shaped ice cream cake? LOL
Maaan, now I'm hungry...
I've never had red velvet cake either, but I've seen it. All I know about is that the inside is... well, red. And I think maybe there's some chocolate ganache frosting? Not sure -- that could just be wishful thinking. :-)
And oddly enough, I don't think I've ever seen Baskin Robbins' pizza ice cream cake. It didn't come in pepperoni flavor, did it?
Lacey
Red Velvet cake is just white cake with a TON of red food coloring. It turns your lips and teeth red ROFL.
This is what mine said:
You are Strawberry Cake:
Fresh, sassy, and romantic.
You're a total flirt, who never would turn down a sugary treat.
Occasionally you're a bit moody - but you usually stay sweet!
ROFL.
Red food coloring? THAT's the secret?! Geez... why don't they just call it Red Food Coloring Cake, then? LOL Red Velvet Cake sounds so... fancy and elegant for something that stains your teeth.
Love that Strawberry Cake description. I can totally see that about you. :-)
Lacey, OMG, that ice cream cake is so you. :D
I'm chocolate cake (what a surprise?)
"Fun, comforting, and friendly.
You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality. People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you."
Don't know about that last part, but I'm definitely friendly. These quizzes are fun and so clever.
Oh, one of my local supermarkets had Red Velvet Cake, but the ingredients included chocolate and my teeth didn't turn red. It was good.
Lyndi
Ha! I'm not sure how to take that, Lyndi... You're saying I'm high maintenance and you get tired of me quickly? *g*
I can totally see you as chocolate cake, though!
Classy? Check.
Fun? Check.
Comforting? Check.
Friendly? Check.
People love your company? Check some more. :-)
Lacey
LOL I know what you mean about the cake! That was a really fun one to do. :)
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